My due date is
Today I am
I'm not weighing myself anymore -- it's just easier on my mental state that way.
We are having a
Names under consideration:
It's a girl, it's a girl, it's a girl!
Our ultrasound went well -- and I'll have a lovely picture to post soon, but as I'm writing this my husband has them all (he wanted to show them off at work today).
I wasn't too nervous before going to the appointment. The baby was moving quite a bit, so I knew that we wouldn't get any awful surprises at least; there was certainly something very much alive in there. Sure enough, the ultrasound went well. She is incredibly perfect and healthy. However, we didn't find out that she is a she until nearly the end of the ultrasound. First the tech had to measure everything -- the length of the femur and the length of the spine, the circumference of the belly, the sizes of the kidneys and heart and brain. Seeing it all on the screen was so amazing. We could see everything -- we were able to count her fingers and toes. We could see the individual vertebrae in her spine. She's a very squirmy little thing (which is probably why I'm already feeling her move!), but she just did not want to wiggle her legs open and point herself out to the camera. We were lucky and had a wonderful tech -- she kept at it until the baby finally got into just the right position. "Congratulations, you're having a........" she said, and paused unbearably before letting the magic word fall out of her mouth, "GIRL!". I burst into tears.
I think this is what I was waiting for to make this pregnancy feel real. It had all been seeming like a dream still, even though I've been feeling movement for over a week. I still thought that I was deluding myself or living in an alternate reality or something equally absurd. But no, I'm having a baby. Hold on, scratch that. I am not just having a baby, I am carrying my daughter. She is very much real, she is very much a person. I'm not imagining anything.
I finally bought some baby things today, a pink onesie and a bib that says "Daddy's Little Girl". I can't wait until she is here to wear them.